I believe I have always been more comfortable in chaos:  it’s where creativity blooms, it’s raw, it’s authentic, it has flaws and therefore, it’s imperfectly perfect.  It’s a bit scary, and full of madness. This is where the fire of my soul is ignited and stoked. It is in the chaos that I can live passionately and look mediocrity straight on and say “No way! You are not welcome here!”

It’s where I can challenge my thought process and dare to live greatly.  It’s a mix of calm waters and stormy seas. My own storms reside here, and where there is darkness, there is a resounding truth. When I finally owned and accepted the pain, trials, mistakes, wrongs, faults within, I also realized how much love I left behind and how much I have to give. Falling in love with oneself means also falling in love with the violent winds swirling inside.

It is in this chaos that I meet other broken people, those that have lost their sense or worth, lost their fight, lost their light. Because I have learned of love within the storm, it is my purpose and call to action to love them more, to love them deeply even if their own chaos makes it difficult. I must show them that someone cares and even though they don’t make it easy, I shouldn’t give up on them. Giving up on someone destroys our character.

It is in this chaos that my dreams are more vivid. It is here that I learn of my strength and realize that NO ONE can break me–only I can break myself.

I know that all of this makes me quirky and different. I know I am full of love. Believing all of this makes the chaos of my mind and heart beautiful and beautiful things and beings leave their positive mark on the hearts of others igniting a firestorm of love and light that we can spread all over the world.

Many people can’t handle chaos as it’s not neat, tidy and organized. Some people thrive on regiment and routine; on order and control. Not this girl–monotonous routine is tedious and slowly chips away at our souls by dragging us down into the boring, uneventful abyss.

As we enter 2017, I encourage a perspective shift (even if a few baby steps) and take time to embrace a little mess and a little chaos. Once you step off the path a little, I am confident you will enjoy the jolt of energy and light that will enter your life. Go a little mad this year–it will be worth it!

K

This is my brain on chaos!